I struggled to shut my eyelids. My eyes were anguished, and the veins had reddened the white glow that existed. There was no scope for even the slightest blink.  Finally after forced restraint, I was able to master my straying emotions. But wait, what was that? I felt, my cheeks moistened, and a sharp sting in my chest. A tear rolled down across my cheek, despite, the enlarged motionless eyelids . A faint realisation swept across my entire being, and then it grew obtrusive. The realisation filled me with failure. Failure to tame the reins of my emotions. Yet again.